I was never really a Frightened Rabbit fan. I don’t know why some bands seem to have the ability to just grab me by the soul while others don’t. But I’m currently listening to the newly-released album Tiny Changes: A Celebration of Frightened Rabbit’s “The Midnight Organ Fight” which is an album of artists covering Frightened Rabbit songs from that album.
Two of my favorite artists are on it – Julien Baker and Manchester Orchestra. That’s how I found out about it.
I remember hearing about Scott Hutchinson’s death last year. The Frightened Rabbit founder and frontman was 36.
“The fact that his body was found in a body of water called the Firth of Forth, where on The Midnight Organ Fight’s ‘Floating in the Forth’ he had imagined his own suicide (before rejecting the idea ‘for another day’), became the stuff of tabloid news.”
From “Floating in the Forth”
“And fully clothed, I float away
(I’ll float away)
Down the Forth, into the sea
I think I’ll save suicide for another day.”
Reading articles about how his openness and honesty inspired so many and gave people hope is encouraging. It’s also paradoxical – he gave hope while simultaneously losing it himself.
In his family’s statement, they said:
“Depression is a horrendous illness that does not give you any alert or indication as to when it will take hold of you… His willingness to discuss these matters in the public domain undoubtedly raised awareness of mental health issues and gave others confidence and belief to discuss their own issues.”
Even in his last tweets before his disappearance, he was still putting kindness into the world:
“Be so good to everyone you love. It’s not a given. I’m so annoyed that it’s not. I didn’t live by that standard and it kills me. Please, hug your loved ones.”
Listening to the Tiny Changes album and reading about Hutchinson has me feeling a certain kind of way. I think it’s because of my own struggles with some of the same things he dealt with. It’s difficult sometimes. I just hope I can put some positivity out into the world while I’m here.
To quote Hutchinson: Please, hug your loved ones.